Doux Comme Miel

It’s been more than a year since I’ve written here, in part because someone convinced me to start a Substack. The point of this space was for me to write freely and anonymously, and the pressure of a Substack kind of erased all that. So I’m back, trying to recreate the magic of posting my intimate thoughts on the internet in the hopes that I’ll find some link-minded strangers to read them and give me support.

What’s changed in the last year? Everything and nothing. Life is still sweet, of course, but increasingly difficult. When I first started this blog I didn’t have a job, and now I do. So that’s something. I’ve also changed apartments and spent the last year doing my best to make the new space feel as cozy as the old space. Everything takes time.

I quit smoking, which was probably the most difficult and most rewarding thing that happened last year and I didn’t advertise to the whole world.

This year I tried to start off strong, restarting my yoga practice which was interrupted as soon as I got into the flow of it thanks to some restructuring at my job.

April and May were exceptionally challenging months for me personally and also the world. I’m doing my personal best to stay informed but in a limited way so that I’m not overwhelmed.

I got sick twice, once because I was out too much at the end of march, and once because of stress at the beginning of May.

I very foolishly let myself be vulnerable for the first time in a long time and then immediately regretted it. Everyone keeps telling me not to beat myself up over it, and I’ve almost let it go.

Now it’s June! June 2026. I am hoping for good things in June. Paris just went through a rain wave followed by a heatwave. Things have started to balance out. Summer is basically here.

I’ve been experimenting with the type of things I post on social media. I’ve had a separate account that doesn’t have my face on it and it’s only pictures and videos of random things I’ve seen around Paris. One video recently went kind of viral and I went from 32 followers to 138 followers.

But the videos that go viral are always the ones I think are throwaway whatever videos. Never ones I actually invest time on editing. It makes me feel like I should just throw up whatever onto the internet. As long as it’s real, it’s better than AI slop right?

AI is another thing. I’m torn between trying to learn more how to use it, because jobs want that, and trying not to use it as much as possible so that my brain doesn’t atrophy and I forget how to write. I can’t be all in on AI, but it also doesn’t seem like they’re going to let it go now. I keep waiting for the bubble to burst. The astrology doesn’t indicate that it will though.

So here we are, living in this new age where everything is changing and it feels impossible to plan for what will happen next. Woo!

And I’m back to writing in this space. Hopefully this time I can stick with it.

Bisous 💋

-Honey